...a quest of sorts.
Today marks the 30th of December. I am almost halfway through an undertaking I embarked upon 30 days ago. I am attempting to form a habit.
In this blog, Kathryn Goetzke, refers to a UK Health Behaviore Research Centre study that suggests that the process of forming habits takes 66 days. Jeremy Dean of psyblog discusses the 66 day average here, and the variables involved. He indicates that habit forming is not an easy thing, and the more complex the task, the longer it takes to form the habit. I myself have always struggled with forming any kind of habit. Even the simplest of tasks have been out of my reach.
My focus is such that daily routines are painful for me. I cannot pin them down. Everything feels scattered to me and random. I like fast cars and traffic; static. I am at my best when things are moving too fast or not moving at all. Unpredictable staccato. Opposites, contradictions, cacophony etc.
Chaos is grand but I know order serves its purpose. Better still the balance between the two. What I desire here is not an order such that would seek to dominate and control. Rather, the choice to focus on the things that I want to focus on. The things that are important to me. I said before that distraction happens and will continue to happen, but what if I had more choice over when that happened?
I already have tools that help me, but how useful would forming positive habits be to me? To anyone with ADHD for that matter? Since we are asking questions, let's ask another one. What else can be helpful to someone challenged by ADHD?
I came across this video on meditation:
What I've done here is combine two things beneficial to ADHD. The first is forming a positive habit. The second is meditation. Both work on different aspects of my concentration. So every morning I meditate and have been doing so for 30 days straight. I will continue to keep track for 36 more days. After that it should be effortless.
The meditation itself hasn't been easy. I've been trying to stay focused on my breaths but my mind wanders. Some days come easier than others. Right now I'm just trusting in the process rather than spending any time getting frustrated like I would when I was younger.
I'll keep you posted!
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